Hi I'm not ACTUALLY a Hacker I was a little bored and came up with this name, please don't report me!

I'm a depressed soul that seeketh for help.. I'm in depression and please help me with a follow!

I don't want to lead to suicide!
I'm trying very hard maybe this is the last oppurtunity I've got...

I'm writing seriously BECAUSE there's a knife literally on my bed. so please help...