(includes some of my own experiences with other people)


Nowadays, with so much social media, people tend to get excessive negative/positive feedback from others. That will negatively/positively impact the creator. However, many others may come in the situation where they see the comments, and, well, a lot of scenarios can occur from this point. Arguments can easily break out, leading to bigger problems. Some might feel jealous, affecting their mental health. Those variables (and many others) can lead to improper behavior, whether one becomes narcissistic or extremely defensive. With that, they can impact other people in many ways, leading to them likely changing their behavior towards an individual, or in some cases, towards everyone, even those who are extremely close to them. That leads to my question: are people too benevolent, or have they evolved to antagonistic beings in the eyes of the “weak”?

I have personally dealt with this situation, being in both situations. They mostly started from a ballet intensive from the summer of 2021, where I met a good friend who I will refer to as “Maddie”. Since ballet is quite expensive, most of the kids from that school were on the wealthier side of society. On top of dance wear and pointe shoe fees, the academy is a rather prestigious one. They have sent students to numerous ballet competitions, won multiple prizes, and even sent (at least) two students to an international ballet competition, where it is an honor to even be accepted at all. There, I met Maddie in a year-long class, but bonded even closer during summer intensive. However, our relationship did have ups and downs. Maddie's family lives in a 3-story house that's roughly about three times as big as mine. She invited me to her little sister's birthday party. It was really exquisitely planned. They had horses, a snack bar, chickens (which we both have as pets, and that's one of the reasons why we became friends), and a big pool. I was just vaccinated the day before the party, but fortunately, I felt fine and had a great time. This is only the start.

In our class, there's a girl who I will refer to as “Rose”. She was ten years of age, two years younger than me at the time. In the ballet world, it is a milestone when you get your first pair of pointe shoes (as a girl). Usually kids start at ten or eleven, but I was twelve and still haven't started yet. That made me extremely frustrated, because I've thought about doing ballet semi-professionally as an extra-curricular activity since I was nine. Let's do the math. That's three whole years of waiting to get pointe shoes. However Rose wasn't very technically prepared for pointe, yet she still had them. I'm glad that she is at least trying, and getting to know the feeling of pointe shoes. But Maddie hates her on a spiritual level. So I would go on and off with each of them, sometimes hanging out with Maddie, and sometimes being there for and defending Rose from the older kids. But Maddie was aggressive. Whenever she was mad at someone, she'd curse at them and give them the middle finger. That really changed me. So when school opened and everyone was in-person, I would be roasting everyone as a reply. Not all the time, but it was still on the serious side.

Things got quite heated when I went to my new ballet school. It was a more toned-down and affordable one, but you could still learn a lot and improve rather quickly. There is this one kid, Alice (not her real name), who was the teacher's favorite. Private lessons are where you are in a class all by yourself for competition, and they are expensive. However, when Alice is in the group class, she basically gets a semi-private lesson. The teacher stops everyone just to correct her. It feels really bad to be neglected, especially in the ballet world. But that's not the catch. The kids there are all very “competitive”. In my class, a kid named Jaydon (also not his real name), who's won multiple lessons, trilingual, and quite talented, literally simps for Alice. And yes, I am implying that Jaydon and Alice are weird. That was about a month ago, during Nutcracker season. We'd have constant rehearsals, which meant Jaydon and Alice could meet very often. But the thing is that Jaydon never always simped for Alice. At one point, he always stuck around me (guys im asexual bruh). I liked his company. I like people's company in general, so I didn't think much about it. But when he accidentally poked me in the eye, he got very apologetic towards me. I told him “it's fine, i'm good,” and he seems to have gotten over it. When I got home one night, I checked Instagram. I don't know how I realized, but he blocked me on all four of his accounts. I started to get the implication that he despises me, so I started to ignore him. He thinks it was all about how he poked my eye, but I told him it was fine (as usual). He looked reluctant, and I did kind of feel bad about that. But after that incident, he went to follow Alice. But Jaydon was extremely sensitive. Probably in a fun way, like how he always gets suspicious when these other kids (who've known Jaydon for a while) whisper with me in Chinese. And he couldn't understand it, so he gets defensive of himself, as if we were insulting him (well at least the other kids were).

Then one day at lunch (at school), I thought about this question. Let's take Jaydon as an example. Is he a generally weak person, or is he normal and I just get too aggressive sometimes? Let's think of it as magical powers. In Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard series (by Rick Riordan), Magnus, the protagonist, has to insult the antagonist, Loki, into a tiny person and lock him up in a walnut. How that works, I don't exactly know, but he beats the god of mischief - and even though Marvel Loki was terribly portrayed in mythological terms, we could easily imply that Loki is good at insulting people. Magnus himself could be easily offended but when it comes to dire situations (like the insult battle), he likes to take the rules and bend it to fit his conditions, and still ends up winning. I think the moral of this part of this exceedingly long semi-formal essay is to always take advantage of even the things that you think are bad.

Let's take more people into consideration. Take gen z kids. I'm a gen z person, and so is basically everyone at my school. Everyone is either very obnoxious, or they're very nice. But swearing and cussing does occur a lot. I am not fond of swearing, but I do roast my friends quite often, and the fun part is that they roast me back. It's our way of playing with each other, but it's not the same with everyone.

One big variable of this issue is one's personality and how they view people and their way of communicating with them. The kids from my old ballet school (Maddie, Anna, etc) takes things very seriously, while kids from my current ballet school take things in an either serious way or wave it off very soon. People from my school take things in a negative way, as well as some people on the internet, despite the fact that many people are trying their best to be positive.

As humans, a big component of life is war. About a week ago, I was scrolling on TikTok and I saw a movie clip (I forgot the name, sorry) where a woman is talking to a younger girl about life and how men cause all issues. Just as a disclaimer, please note that I am not hating on men/male-aligned people, but rather trying to make a point. The woman talks about how females have to experience all kinds of pain like menstruation, childbirth, and often get judgement about their weight/physical appearances, while men try to balance this way of life by inventing “all these gods and demons and things just so they can feel guilty about things, which is something we do very well on our own. Then they create wars so they can feel things and touch each other. And when there aren't any wars, they can play rugby.” Even cavemen would fight with each other with sticks and stones, and now that is only considered horseplay. I'm not a big anime person, but if there's one anime that I think has valuable morals, that's Attack on Titan. For those who don't understand the show, there are basically these two best friends. They are in a world where humans are almost going extinct due to giants (titans) who devour humans. Two of the friends, Eren and Armin, are a killer duo. Eren is physically strong, but Armin is a big brain genius. However, Eren is really stubborn, and Armin is on the weaker side. Eren's stepsister, Mikasa, likely has PTSD from her past, and she is also quite strong physically. At one point where Eren gets mad at Mikasa and Armin, he insults Mikasa and beats Armin up, perfectly hitting their weak points. That's literally business /hj. My point is that humans (not just men) will feel the need to be aggressive and violent at some point in their life, and sometimes develop it into a habit even at the slightest mishaps. However, kids are also men in some way. They don't carry the burden of all the feminine issues (girls don't encounter those situations until they're older), so they make and use their own way of hurting and feeling.

There is a lot of psychological truth behind the debate of whether some people are just weak and tenderhearted or society has just become toxic and inconsiderate. I personally think that humanity has really gone down and some people are just naturally kind people. Because imagine how terrible if everyone was roasting geniuses.

Please reply to this about what you think is the issue. I'd love to hear some of your opinions!

- Trinity, 1/1/22


1,730 words :0 i wrote this in 2 hours bruh lmao