I’m beginning to sort this out. For anyone with the same problem, thsi is how I’m getting it fixed.
-first, I stopped looking at this other persons art. Staring at my problem doesn’t help.
-second, I found a passion I hadn’t pursued in a while. While rereading the warriors book series, I got really happy and passionate.
-Then I decided on some art I could do for that. I’ve always been an artist, whether it’s on the violin or piano, on paper or cpu, or when I’m writing. I’ve always done that, so I used an old hobby, to pursue a new passion.
Now I continue to pursue this passion, and I enjoy it much more than I enjoyed the other art.
Thank you to all the people who supported me, even for a little bit.
The art I put in here is my art that's actually mine. I barely will have any
My art isn’t mine anymore.
I copy styles because I’m not happy with my ability
I’ve been up late trying to make it work.
My art has barely improved.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate this feeling. I’m trying to be an artist that people don’t look at and think, ‘Wow, you’d imagine someone their age could draw.’ But I can’t without copying everything off someone else.
Here’s the full truth.
I drew and drew my whole life. I was always fascinated with dragons, and drew them. When I was about nine, I went through a stage of drawing fennec foxes from photos of them, and I was myself. Then I got online, made a scratch account, tried coding, and left for almost a year. When I eventually remembered this was a thing, I came back and found a digital artist whom I became obsessed with. I was turning twelve at this time. I drew off of their art, and claimed it was my own. I borrowed poses and styles. Now I don’t know what’s ‘me’ anymore. I would turn to my family but they’re under stress about other things right now.
I want my Scratch Family out there to give me some support. It’s pretty hard for someone who doesn’t fit in to get friends like you guys.