I always saw myself as... well... awful but now I dont have time for that, not anymore-- not ever. now everything is so strongly against me im afraid to even move. But im living... or trying. static is everywhere. I cant think without some kind of order. everything I do has become destructive. ive become a hurricane and I cant help anyone because all I do is destroy- so i'll just... stop.... I suppose. I cant wake up because everything is too loud to be quiet and too quiet to be loud. I need to stop this path of destruction before I create it. I need to stop everything. but myself and my heartbeat. Its the only thing there for me. other than her. and I love her. I just wish she loved herself, too. Everything is so contradicting I just wish it would pause so I could breathe and think.this is my pause. Im here, i'll breathe im okay. I control myself, my thoughts. you are beautiful, the mirrors are just lies. you are loved. the looks are just fake. you dont know what people think of you. its getting better every day. push forward. for yourself, for her, for starkept one more day... one more night.... one more day... one more night... one more day... one more night. one more day. one more night. I can't wait for tomorrow!
for everyone who's mind is against them, this is how I think every day. one more day guys, one more night, until you cant wait for tomorrow.