guys my gf died, i need a break im so sad, i cant even explain. it hurts so much, knowing she was my best friend too. i needed her. I've never cried so much in my life. I need her with me. Natalie was such a great person. i loved her, and she never argued with me. her soul was one to remember. she had anxiety, lived with a foster family, never met her mom, but kept fighting. i'll never forget it.
but now shes gone.
don't tell me it's okay. it's not. i hate myself. it's all my fault. i hate myself. hate hate HATE myself.