Irl Relationship Issues, and my mental state as of now:
What I told my bestie:
"I just don’t understand.. This is the third time I’ve been hurt in a relationship… The first one, I was broken up with over text… that person is my best friend now, and I can turn to him whenever I need to talk… The second time, this was recent… We never really spoke, and it hurt because I thought he was cheating on me… And he was too busy for me… So that hurt worse… We don’t speak anymore… Then it was Ainsley and me… She said yes to not hurt my feelings, but I ended up being hurt worse than I would’ve been if she had just told the truth…"
My mental state:
I am now even more broken, and things have been getting worse. I'm not sure why someone thought that I wouldn't be hurt by a lie... Especially one dealing with my feelings... I think I'm just gonna give up on love, in all honesty.. There's obviously a reason why I'm always hurt... Maybe It's because I'm not meant to be in a relationship..
Song(s) representing how I feel right now:
This Is Home- Cavetown
The Knife In My Back- Alec Benjamin