his eyes were empty, blank as he lifted the somewhat heavy weapon to his head and clicked it into position
he whispered "I'm sorry, Pearl, I know you liked me.. I'm sorry, father.. sorry, Cooper and Parker, that I wasn't a better brother..
Sorry to all of my siblings that I was never there for you.."
he was crying as he kept the weapon pointed at his forehead
"Welcome me home, mother.."
his voice shook as he said his last "To all who ever cared.. I love you too.."
then he fired
to the ground
the gun slipped out of his fingers and landed with a clatter on the ground too
his supposedly lifeless grey-blue eyes reflected the stars when Pearl found his body