So if you guys notice, I have been making a lot of VENTS (AKA when a animator is upset and want to draws it out). I have been feeling upset, not a bit ,but a lot... .Now not to worrier all of ya'll ,but everything has a due date... if you get what I mean then I hopefully will still be on scratch until 2019 December. Now I have been talking to my friends for some time and they noticed my attitude a bit... they kept asking me if I'm all right, and ya'll know that it's a lie. Now I a have a quote:
"The prettiest Smiles,
Hides the darkest secrets.
The most Beautiful eyes,
Have cried the most tears.
And The Kindest of hearts,
Have felt the most pain."
This is from a song and It's all true. No one can't tell me that this doesn't tell all of us who are depressed or ect. Now ya'll can talk to me in this studio about myself, but please. If I don't reply then don't think that I ignored you... I just don't think that that question or reply doesn't need an explanation... Now don't report this. I just want to have everybody calmed down. I'm not fine...
Now people ask me: "Why are you upset?" I don't reply because it's way to much, but now I can.
First Reason: I really don't get why I have a propose in this world... I always make the mistakes and never get it! When my friends are feeling down I cheer them up, but all it does is that it gives me the bad feeling... we just trade emotions, but I'm always keeping the bad feelings because I deserve it...
Second Reason: I get harassed,bullied, and threats because I'm a furrie. I love to cosplay, but they see it the other definition...
Third Reason: I know when people say "Oh you're cute!" and they're lying, just to cheer me up. That doesn't work you know...
Fourth Reason: My 2 other BF's that I broke up with were just straight out creeps. The first one was just using me to get popular and didn't even care about me... The second one I thought was all right, but then he started demanding nudes of me. I felt very concerned and not safe. I later broke up with him and got back together with my GF. I felt like I'm too stupid to live, or just a joke! I'm nothing, but a play thing to them!...
Fifth Reason: My cousins... now you may say" Oh well they're your cousins! They can help!" That's not true one bit. If you don't know me in real life the I'll tell one big reason. I'm the only girl in my family besides the other girl cousin I have in Taiwan. But she doesn't count, due to all of my other family members live in the USA Texas.All my other cousins are boys! Don't get me wrong! I love them (in a family way),but they mistreat me like I don't even exist in this world. I know that NOT all boys bullies girls or bully! I respect all of the good people! But still... they nevered show and type of care in the world for me...
Sixth Reason: I'm paranormal so that means that I can see ghost and evil spirits. It's ok if you don't believe me... many don't. But back to the point. I can see and hear them. You may say "Oh well then, you're just gifted!" It's not a gift,but a punishment for all my wrong doings and does a favor for my bullies. Now how is it a punishment? Well the bad/evil spirit ghosts keep telling me to just um...(Keeping it child friendly) to go into a void and never come back.
Seventh Reason: My parents. Now I'm not going into detail, but all I'm going to say is over protective.
Eighth Reason: My belief. Know I believe that I'm a werewolf. (IK sounds like a child), but it's true. I know why I get bullied for this one.
Ninth: My Anxiety Level. Back then it used to not be that bad, but hey! It's through the roof now... I can't even talk to my family or GF correctly now in days. I just feel like a box being closed up and never made it's way to its destination.
Tenth Reason: My emotions. Now my emotions can go through the roof, due to that back then I used to bottle them up, but the bottle broke.
Eleventh Reason: My disorders. Now my mom keeps telling me that I'm a normal and perfect child... I know that she's lying... she only wants to make me happier, but that only brings me down the hill...
My disorders are: Emotionless (Some random times),Paranormal,Anger management problems, emotions, and a lot more, but I forgot that names of them.
And finally the Twelfth: My past.
I was a spoiled little brat back then ok. I know that now, but back then I just thought I was born into a rich family, but in reality, my family is in the normal levels.
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