Um- I wanted to make this studio because of reasons that are really important to me...
The title might seem happy-go-lucky but this studio really isn't.
So as you know I've been on scratch for over a year now- and that achievement is amazing, yes. But theres a problem with that...
A year ago is started my profile out as a warriors-addicted, new-to-scratch, and in all weird person.
I thought I seemed popular due to my scratch growth-spirt which gave me over 500 followers in a few months.
Now im going back to the speak of my time being on scratch-I used to be more popular, more extroverted...
But as I continued my journey on scratch less and less people tended to look on my profile-
If you compare my views on my projects from a year ago to the ones made recently you could see that there is a Jurassic change in views. The ones from a year ago being 100 to 200 views, and the ones now... a sad and low 4 to 10.
I know I had a really long hiatus and I changed my style of projects and my interests have changed with me growing up-
I used to be that type of person who never swore and loved to read Warriors and did stuff mostly irrelevant to the modern day- and now I tend to look on the worse side of things, my anxiety has increased and I'm scared to post anything- I dont talk to any of you and thats what makes me feel horrid. I swear more when I get frustrated and I watch more depressing or more containing swears, content.
This year has been hard on me-
with the decrease of views, popularity and motivation.
Please understand that im trying to make a change in what I do- and I believe the reason why people left me is because I stopped liking what the majority of scratch likes- I feel like everyone knows me as a weird extroverted, warrior loving, person. And one that used a lot of bases and talked to everyone. I'm more mysterious and anxious about everything that has happened to me- including my personal life and my social media life. Ive been going through many more things than losing popularity.
Ive lost friends, motivation, and more.
Why am I making this a studio?
I made this a studio so you can join it- yes a forceful thing to do and I dont care if you dont except I just want you to read this. I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT IVE BEEN THROUGH.
Now ill talk about a more harsh topic...
a person-who I won't name- who has been a friend of mine for well over three years has abandoned me- they have "supported" me and my art for so long- but halloween of 2017 changed me- I found out that they were treating they're friends-including me- like trash.
They used they're group of friends to make fame and popularity for themselves. They used me, as the artist of the group and shared my art and my ability to draw with others and talked about it like it was they're own. They disowned me as a friend and said I was mean to them while I knew they were being a dang hypocrite.
They used me. and I won't forgive them EVER for what they have done.
My year on here was terrible. And sometimes I just feel like quitting scratch- or making a new account so I can start a new life on there.
But @LunarEscape is too close to me, too much to discard. I can never leave. And if you honestly dont care about me anymore- just unfollow me and you dont have to look at this stupid page again.
Thats all... and if you still dont understand. I have nothing better to say to you than "Sorry."
And remember... stay snazzy.