Sorry if this is depressing at all, I just really need to vent... I've been feeling stressed and I feel like I need to talk about it.

First off, I want to apologize. I know I've made a few impulsive decisions to move forward with the MAP and I'm sorry... I feel like it's my fault and I should have never started the MAP in the first place... But I know how much people enjoyed doing this and the effort everyone put into this. It's not any of your guys' fault, it's mine...

I feel insignificant to the world. I feel like a waste of space and empty. I feel like I'm never gonna accomplish anything worth caring about. People tell me I'm special and smart but I don't feel that way. What am I here for? Is there a reason I'm here?

I feel like my family's a ticking time bomb. My dad can be very weird at times, not to mention he's not here most of the time, my mom blabs to everyone on the phone about everything, and my brother's unpopular and gets bullied a lot, not to mention he gets most of the attention and fights with my parents a lot. I usually stay out of arguments, so I usually just listen to them. I don't really mind, though, but I'm still worried about them.

I think I'm gonna stop there. Of course, there's still a few things on my mind, but I don't think they're nearly important as those. The reason I come to you guys is because I feel like I can get so much more support and advice from you all. You've been supportive in the past, and I feel I can tell you all this and you won't make fun of me or anything like that. I'm very grateful for very single one of you, and I hope nothing gets in the way of that.

~ @----Pearl----