BTW, if u wanna, u don't have to read all, just skip to when the dashed line thingy comes if u wanna. that's where the only important stuff really is)
So, I have been really addicted to scratch the past few.... months? Now school is gonna start soon. And i am not going to start highschool, so it's a big change, from elementary, to highschool (we have no middle school here).
So... I have to stop being on Scratch so much.... Otherwise I will not be able tos concentrate on ANYTHING
Wich I honestly already have trouble with a lot. Seriously, I keep messing up and accidentally breaking and/ or dropping stuff.
This is actually really hard for me. Just, u don't have to say anything. Just know this....
It's not just because of school either. I literally have no life. Even when I played soccer(wich I love), or so.... I cannot even concentrate and enjoy the game. I cannot even sleep properly, due to scratch making me 'happy', and all the sad emotions just being blocked out and pushed away, not being let out. They block up inside of me. idk how 2 explain it.
Seriously, I do not even know myself anymore. Barely know my personality, it's a bit creepy.
Even a bunch of times when I have put happy smiles or XD, I really didn't feel like it. But, idk.
I will still be on... probably still quite a lot, but I will try to stay away from scratch a bit.
So anyways. I won't be on too much anymore then.... Please do not invite me to too many studios, I already have over a thousand, and I feel like it's kinda getting enough for a while. But if u have a studio that is like really important, u can surely invite me. Also stories on scratch, I enjoy to read those. Rp's, I will skip a lot of those, so if u want be to join it, tell me on my profile.
I will not get mad at anoyone for inviting me to a studio. It's completly okay
Please don't spam my profile. My sis does that enough already, XD
So, yeah, whoever doesn't want to read more, can stop reading now
Well.... anyways.... I've been trying to get myself to do this for over a month already... So, now I finally was able to actually do this.
Please don't say anything mean or so. I feel bad about me doing this and writing this actually.
I'm..... scared? if that's the word to use, I do not know.
Also, this is like actually the first time I've actually said this all. My parents know about the computer-addiction, but not really about the personality stuff and stuff...
Also, I didn't re read it, so this must be really confusing
I honestly have more kinda to say, but I'll leave it to this. It must be annoying to read this. Sorry for bothering u guys
Scared to invite anyone
Scratch has also made me feel really guilty since I have trouble saying "No" to people. I don't want them to feel bad or hurt their feelings.