Honestly I doubt that any of you would care about this, but go ahead. Read the message)
I've lost most of my motivation to keep on doing the things that I love. I can't really draw because I always know that it won't come out the way I like it.
I can't animate because I feel like it's going to turn out cringeworthy and for (mostly) the same reasons as drawing.
However I might attempt to draw/animate today if I ever get better? I've had some ideas on my mind that i'll try to do.
I can't make any friends online or offline because I think i'm so toxic/unstable that my relationships will break by at least one sentence, one word.
I'm only friendly to my followers just to make up for my flaws that I forget to hide at points. I seem like a good artist/animator like all of the other ones on Scratch, however to me and other people, I really don't feel as good as anybody else, and here's why:
I'm selfish. I want to make everything about myself and don't care about other people's problems or views about me.
I lack courtesy and respect. People try to stay away from me and I lose followers due to the loads of arguments that I get into, and how I vent things like this where people think "woah, i'm edgy" and unfollow me right away.
I'm rude and aggressive to others, and I don't think before I act. As i've said before, I do lack courtesy and respect.. I am impatient and lack boundaries when it comes to sudden impulses. I let my feelings lose and out of control when they get to me, and sadly that causes a lot of damage to come and reputation to fade away.
I don't know how any of you say that i'm good. You just say that because you haven't seen the other parts of me, and you're just hypnotized by what projects I make on here to think that "i'm a good person".
None of you how know how I really behave would even like me. In that sense, nobody even cares about my stupid problems.