october 20, 1:10 am..
hey guys! So I decided to make this studio in honor of my dog milo who passed away december 30, 2019 around 1- 5 am..
I will tell u about milo here..
and it will tell what i did after... and how i thought of myself.
so Im sorry it turns into how I am now- if u want u can just leave.
july 25.... was when my dog/brother milo was adopted.
heh.. he is clever.... He could escape any boxes. He was adopted at 6 months old. Over the years we got closer and closer and it seemed like me and milo were brothers. He protected me and @holydream, and we protected him back. One year he got a tumer on his side. But it didnt hurt or affect him. I was worried and asked if we could get it removed but my dad said he would need surgery so I said nvm bc ik my dog wouldnt like the vet. then... when i was in 5th grade my happy little life was...well... changed when i went to a new school and my parents got divorced.. It was rough for me and milo and my brother. And my dog ended up getting sick in the summer after i finished 5th grade and almost died.. But my dog is strong. He fought the infection.
what he looked like: He was chubby and small and super nice and cute
how he acted: Super nice and kinda lazy and kinda active.
heh.........I thought everything would get better till anxiety happened for me and stuff.. I was more addicted to electronics bc I wanted to escape reality. Then I ignored milo more...and..more... Oh how a horrible person I am and was.. Poor milo got cancer in november... I cried so hard. But bc I am a horrible dumb person.. I GOT MORE ADDICTED TO ESCAPING THIS STUPID DAMN WORLD!!!!!
My parents said I loved my phone more then him... I said no I dont.. Milo wasnt happy.. He got worse every day... I thought he would get better... I even prayed... But december came and he made it through xmas but then.. I left to go to my moms house on the 27th... of december.. I smiled at milo i hugged him and I TOLD HIM: I will see u next week i promise..
I am a lier arent i? MIlo had been holding the pain in until we left... He couldnt... And it was my fault I didnt let them put him down. Then of course... The worst holiday ever.. NEW YEARS EVE.. IT came and my heart shattered when he died.
Of course this happened.. I GET NO ASHES FROM HIM! I DONT GET TO SEE HIS BODY!!!!
Why.. Just why.. What did milo do to deserve it..?
I was a idiot to think happy endings existed. I was a idiot to be online. I literally gave up on everything.. Grades went down... I stopped reading.. I got pain.. I just felt like i failed another person, another animal..... Cuz all i was like my dad says: " You are selfish sometimes.. All you care about is that stupid phone."
MAYBE UR RIGHT DAD!!! OH WHATS THIS?? MY GRANPARENTS SAY SAME THINGS??
I know!!! I wasnt a good brother to milo!! PLEASE STOP! IM SORRY OK!!!??
Oh my god... I talked abut myself again!? Im sorry guys..
ppl @holynootnoot has failed: Everyone.