My bestfriend/crush pretended to be someone else through text to get my trust so that he could get into my head and make me say something that he and his girlfriend could use against me. And it worked! He pretended to be someone else and used all of my weaknesses to get my trust and make me feel sorry for him. He knew that I was already feeling hurt, alone, and sad, and he pretended to be someone who I thought felt the same way, someone who understood me. And I feel for it. And in the end I got more hurt than ever and lost pretty much all of my friends. And now everything hurts so much. :`(
What do I do?
This is a poem I wrote on April 3rd, 2020, called Broken Hearted.
I've been hurt so many times now and I don't know what to do.
I want to keep trying and not give up on you.
You have stabbed, cracked, broken, and shattered this heart so many times.
You emptied my emotions and took away my luck.
I try and try again like what I have been told.
But you only threw me away again and again leaving me in the cold.
I gave you all my heart, my love, and trust.
But you took me for granted, you were my crush.
I truly do care about you but you don't believe me.
Every time I say I'm sorry you leave me.
How can I keep going on when it all hurts?
Thing is, I still love you even though it hurts.
You shattered my heart six times in a row,.
You lied to me and changed who you are.
I shouldn't still care but for some reason I do.
You tore me to pieces,
How could you?
I know you were never mine.
You were always her's.
But you didn't have to hurt me like I was a rose with only thorns.
I try and try again to just show you,
That I do care about you,
And I love you.
But you took me for granted,
And broke my heart.
Now I'm only part of the Broken Hearted that is in the dark.