Uhh... So I recently had an identity crisis... So here's a quick story for you, since your probably confused:
It all started two years ago when I first entered college. Everyone swore, was arrogant, most of them were super creepy and rude as well. They also made fun of me cuz I was that one girl that sat by herself all the time, the one girl that had Nightmare Gang pictures everywhere, even on her walls. And I was the freak on campus. After a while, I gained a few friends and they... Were different. I wanted to be like the normal kids: so I said "yeah!" to everything they said, researched everything they talked about....
And I became a shell of who I used to be. I gave everyone a thumbs-up when they did something wrong, I learnt how to pull the perfect prank, all the things everyone else did... All the things I had said no to so many times before..... I was now the master if doing.
Now, you're probably getting really bored: so I'll cut to present day. Let's say, 2 days ago. I was sitting in my dorm studying, and I suddenly realised how not-me I had become. I was reminded how I had cut my hair so short I looked like a boy, how I had grown to swear when others did, how I had become so......"normal".
I began thinking more into it and I... Uh..... Sorta had a small seizure from some sort of panic that the thinking enduced -w-
I'm okay though!! But afterwards, I couldn't get what I was thinking about out of my mind. I don't even know what my favorite color is anymore!!
Even my crush on Cross on this profile is only there because a majority of people ship me and Cross.
Now, next day: I still couldn't stop contemplating. I felt... Weird. I realized how uncomfortable I was being called a girl, but I didn't want to be a boy.. I didn't feel right being a male any more than a female. So.... I declared myself non-binary. Of course, all the gay dudes and dudettes were like "AWH YEAH!", but I sorta lost all my friends. :)
So yeah.... Short summary: I have no idea who I am anymore and I'm genderless.