Okay,so the hiatus is still going on but I guess ot wasn't really as serious as it was before so I've been posting a little but now
...you know what I'm just gonna copy and paste from my DA:
I daydream like 24/7 about my Undertale au, U.T.N.G,I mean literally every night and sometimes in the day too...And sometimes it's gets really emotional and I literally make myself cry from it...I've been doing so for about an hour now..almost two hours...it's 2am and all I can think about is being in dreams place.being immortal. Having to watch helplessly as everyone they love and care about slowly dies and can't help but lose the memory of them over time...why do I do this to myself ...I can't help it by now...it's a common occurrence to think about it since it's been almost five years of me working on this stupid au...idk what to do because I'm already not getting much sleep and this isn't helping...my parents don't know but earlier my mum said that she wants to get me pills to sleep at night since I have extremely bad insomnia and usually don't fall asleep till around 4-5am.. sometimes not at all....today/last night I only fell asleep at 5:59am...don't ask how I know I definitely wasn't animating on flipaclip out of boredom or anything like I am now XD ...but either way I don't think medicine or anything else can help....this year is very important,I'm starting my GCSEs...all these exams require sleep and studying,two things I can't do. I don't know how I'm going to get through it all and I only have 5 days to figure out a sleeping plan...I don't understand how people just fall asleep...If I keep my eyes open and just lay there quietly I daydream which usually ends up in me drawing or crying most of the night...if I just close my eyes and lay down I find it hard to keep them closed and get scared of my surroundings, knowing that anything could happen or be there and my eyes are closed so I can't see,it's just a natural reaction of the fear of the unknown but that's what everyone says to do...I feel helpless...nothing I do works and Soon if I don't work something out it could mess up my whole life(my GCSE choices literally decide my path in life and are what make up my future careers and the paths that I choose later on)...I wish I knew what to do but I don't...sorry if I get less active,after all school is starting soon and I'm already busy af..not to mention this makes me feel terribl so I'm now constantly in a bad mood....sorry if this causes me to be late with stuff or post less...
Edit:it's now 3:48am as I'm making this studio.