Will I leave swiftly on the winds?
I ask this now, every time I sign in. Like @athenasowl, I've come to a dilemma: To leave or not to leave. And now I've made a decision.
For now, until next week, I'll be here, being my usual wonderful self. (Ha. Ha.) But I still think about @DreamGirl37, an old Scratcher. How she made a quick, swift and precise decision to leave. And kept it. She said to know that she's gone. Maybe in a year or two, she might come back. But her reasons were hardly debatable. They made sense. So she left. She said she would delete everything. Back then, I laughed. Delete everything? I was newish and every follower was a celebration comparable to a birthday. But it sunk in when she deleted every single project, every single studio. Then, quietly, amongst some friends, she deleted her account.
I didn't expect her to come back. Never did. Still don't. Her friends, now scattered, may harbor other hopes. But she's gone. Enjoying the freedom. Somewhere, there's a piece of paper in someone's desk. It's old and crumpled by now. It holds everything she needs to return to Scratch, followers, studios, every last piece of her internet life. She'll never use it.
Secondly- struggling with my many insecurities and sometimes narcissism. Can you see it in my comments? I hope not. I try to RP and function normally, but occasionally it hits and I don't think I'lll be able to stay as I am on here.
Then there's @athenasowl, her original state I found her in. She leaves, but her departures mean nothing to her. She doesn't delete. She picks up friends, then casts them off, moves on to a new account. Bianca. Booknerd. And now she's leaving, only to come back soon in @FoxedHuntress. This all makes sense to her. But me? I have a New Scratcher- mindset. Every follower is finding a hundred-dollar bill. It's gold. I've had this old account for two years, now. Most move on, turning to slowly-but-surely abandoning, or taking a two-month hiatus, or just straight out deleting. I must to come to a decision.
And here it is. If you like me enough to read seven paragraphs, you're worthy of this knowledge.
I'm partially leaving.
I am like @athenasowl, more so than she thinks. Because though I'm stingy with my accounts, I will always be here (unless I'm 20 and doing actual code).
I'll be here once a month, starting after next week. This might change, but I know that this will remain for at least 4 months.
And now the pain is over and I can relax and not release any projects and will suffer terrible withdrawal pains from not talking to you all.
I hope to meet you all. All of you. Even @MollyCaz, because... Well... It would be interesting. *blows a kiss* Everyone who I have specifically invited, I can discuss this with you privately on my profile. Please ask any comments there.
*does an Annie Cresta*
*cautiously takes off foil hat*
*quits to title in Minecraft*