all my bones, they are gone, gone, gone

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hi, i'm avia. i use she/her pronouns! before my username used to be @avia– so it the nickname made more sense, but now i'm here on @fawniinq-.

take my bones, i don't need none

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i am honestly not the best at talking about myself and usually i just copy and paste my outdated about me from like last year, but this time i'm feeling inspired!! i hope i dont regret this lol.

i'm an active scratcher and roleplayer. i also really like to draw (not for school or anything), but unfortunately my drawing tablet does not work with my school computer and i don't really have anywhere to draw, so i am stuck drawing on scratch with my trackpad.. this honestly is really hard and annoying for me, and it's rather time consuming :pensive:

i am in a pretty serious year of high school, and i'm trying my best to lock in. i would say i get pretty good grades, i'm just trying to also be good at extracurriculars and struggling with burnout.

i used to be an avid reader but now i cannot find the motivation for it anymore. i still know a lot of good books, though. i'm a big fan of red queen, as well as the cruel prince and a good girl's guide to murder. i know these are popular books, but i think i read them before they blew up. as a child, i was a huge warriors reader, (which is why i'm here now) as well as reading some of the other books erin hunter wrote? i also liked foxcraft.

as for my current interests, i've unfortunately lost a lot of them, but i'd say i am a big fan of arcane and, at the moment, spiderman! i watched the tom holland movies recently with my girlfriend and loved them.

i am also a huge thrill-seeker and got the absolutely wonderful opportunity to go to disney. it was amazing. some of my favorite rides were at universal.

so!! yeah. i'm not the best at talking about myself because i always feel like i'm forgetting something. i'm also rather socially awkward. but yeah!

cold, cold cupboard, lord, nothing to chew on

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i have a lot of roleplay experience- i've been role-playing ever since i originally joined scratch in 2021! it's been a long ride since, but i started in tfcrp, tss, and generations in 2024. i've had my fair share of characters- i'm already talk about my generations characters in a different part of the form, so i will talk about my cats from other roleplays instead.

starting with my past characters in tfcrp- i had suncupdance, who was my first. i won her in october of 2024, and kept her until august! she lived for 97 moons. a month after i got her, i also won dewoath from a litter! i kept him for 80 moons. now, moving onto present. i have orioleplight of shadowclan (not shadowclan for long though!) she recently adopted a litter who i am extremely excited to roleplay with, as well as having a bunch of upcoming plot. i also have conquête, who is based off of “the three hearts of an octopus” and also is having his character arc very soon. and then, last but not least, i recently won crimsonkit. she is in windclan and a perfection-obsessed character. she also has a big character arc planned.

moving onto tss, i had captaintide for around a year, or 50 moons. honestly, he didn't have too much going on. currently, i have sonnetpaw of seaclan, heartbreakhaven's daughter, who is honestly a brat, and shapeshifterpaw, of falconclan, who is.. a shapeshifter! they're pretty young but i've roleplayed with them a bunch.

suck all day on a cherry stone

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i'd say i'm very active! especially over the summer and during breaks, i'd say my activity is like a 9.8/10. i'm on scratch all day every day, and constantly checking it because i also don't have much else to do. during school, my activity will probably drop, but i think i can keep it at a steady 7-8. i will be checking scratch every day, hopefully at least a couple of times. however, please keep in mind i will have a decent amount of schoolwork to keep up with, so if i disappear or go inactive, that's why. however, i shouldn't have that much work for at least wishbone's kithood and apprenticeship, so she'll get a lot of apt and exp, hopefully!

dig a little hole, not three inches round

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i've only had a couple of generations characters, which is kind of unfortunate. to start off, i had milkpaw, who died at 9 moons. he was in flurryclan. after that, i won gooseberryshade from a really cool selective litter, and he lived in urchinclan for the entirety of his life. they were pretty fun to roleplay, and lived to 100 moons, i believe. i think gooseberry had the highest amount of experience, but tortrixflutter, my current character, might have more! i don't think so, though. speaking of tortrixflutter, he was part of the mossclan revive, hence the name, and was also designed by indigo! his character has not gone in the direction i'd hoped, but it's okay!

spit your pit, in a hole in the ground

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i am applying for the stunning wishbonekit.

weep upon the spot for the starving of me

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to be honest, at first i was torn between pyrite, wishbone, and kismet. they were all really appealing designs and i was falling in love. however, i knew wishbone was the one i wanted when i realized i had been admiring all of their designs, but i'd been actively thinking of wishbone and the concept i had for her.

i also have been looking to participate in generations. i've had only a couple of characters and i'd like to immerse myself deeper into the roleplay.

till up grows a fine young cherry tree

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i imagine wishbone would start out as female and straight, or unlabeled. as a kit, she's not really gonna be thinking about who she is and what cats she likes. she won't question being female or think about who she's attracted to.

as an apprentice, i could see her developing a crush on someone and basing her whole orientation around them. like. maybe she'll think she is lesbian for a while.

i think that ultimately, as a warrior, she has a crush on someone else and maybe they end up together or something? I'm not sure. she decides she's panromantic and asexual, or somewhere on that spectrum.

when the bough breaks, what'll you make for me?

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( please note, this is a joint application with @cloud_song, who is applying for pyrite)

meadowhawkmoon:
wishbone truly appreciates being taught all of the herbs by meadowhawkmoon. i was thinking i could try to get a sheep companion or something similar, so that even if she ends up being a warrior, she’ll still be able to have healing exp. however, she will also feel incredibly guilty at how much her dad helps her out or tends to her need, or if she doesn’t understand something while being taught. she will offer to help them out, insisting on it even if she is told no. i imagine meadowhawk would be her favorite of her parents, but that’s up to change later on. she will always try to be good enough for him, and as a result of that, try even harder to be useful to pyrite in order to make them proud.

i'm not sure how much the kits will know about his attempt to poison leafhopper, but i imagine, upon finding out, wish would be shocked. she could never have expected her father to do something like this! she will be incredibly torn between feeling for leaf and trying to understand. this may shake up her worldview and how she views the important figures in her life.

glasswinglaurel:
wishbone will, especially as she gets older, try to reject the help from glasswing. though she would never admit it, it feels nice to receive the help, but at the same time, she feels immensely guilty for it. surely that time and energy could better be spent focusing on other things? over time, i could see wishbone beginning to turn to her mom and view her as a moral compass, without directly asking for it.

pyrite:
since this is a joint application, this dynamic has been discussed and planned with clou!
pyrite and wishbone have been sticking together since they were very young. to the untrained eye, it appears like they get along perfectly. however, pyrite uses her to get what he wants. wishbone /needs/ pyrite- she needs to be useful to him to feel like she's worth something, and she agrees with him and supports him whenever she can, boosting his ego, even if she's seen the real him. after a while, doing what pyrite wants and being useful becomes associated with making her parents proud.

a little willow cabin to rest on your knee

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+ selfless, gentle, reliable, compassionate, patient, kind-hearted

= quiet, polite, sentimental, forgiving, modest, stubborn

- people-pleaser, self-sacrificing, insecure, sensitive, hyper-independent

well, what will I do with a trinket such as this?

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POS


selfless . wishbone has an instinctive tendency to put others’ needs above her own. she notices when someone else is struggling before they even ask, and she offers support before even thinking about herself. she finds meaning in being useful to others and feels happiest when she knows others are benefiting. her selflessness is not driven by a need for recognition, though. in reality, she would rather be used than alone. she confuses being needed with being valued, letting others take advantage of her.

gentle . she doesn’t speak in harsh tones, and even the thought of being rude to someone makes her feel guilty. she treats others with kindness and empathy, speaking calmly and in a rather unconfrontational matter. she’s been taught to be respectful, and she is. she is not the cat that explodes when others make her angry, or the one that yells when she’s overwhelmed.

reliable . whenever you need her, she’s there. others can count on her to follow through with her promises, even if it is hard for her– she may need to sacrifice something. she is willing to waste her time for others, and she meets her responsibilities without being asked. her reliability is part of what makes her so valuable to others.

compassionate . wish is rather compassionate– she has a deep emotional awareness of others’ suffering, noticing the minor details like downcast eyes, a drooping tail, or a small shift in tone of voice. when she does notice this, she feels the need to help them, to relieve their suffering or make their sadness go away. she wants them to be better, to be happy.

patient . she has the ability to regulate her emotions pretty well, staying calm in difficult situations. wish can handle delays, other difficulties, or frustration without snapping or acting impulsively. she is willing to wait, taking a few deep breaths whenever she starts to feel angry and the individual or situation. she will not be harsh, she will not snap, staying calm. even though she doesn’t enjoy waiting, she still will, and she’ll do it without complaining.

kind-hearted . wishbone has a natural warmth, as well as a genuine concern for the wellbeing of others. she worries when someone is hurt or upset, and it’s hard on her soul to not do anything about it. so, usually, she tries to help, in any way she can. however, she doesn’t expect anything in return– it isn’t selfishly motivated. she’s simply empathetic and compassionate. it hurts her to see others hurting.


NEU

quiet + polite . wishbone is a quiet and polite cat, preferring to listen rather than dominate conversations. she’s okay with standing off to the side while others take the spotlight. she is very considerate of others, whether it be avoiding making loud noises, or doing something simple to ease their discomfort. wish isn’t rude at all, instead being kind and gentle.

sentimental . she is also pretty sentimental. she’s deeply guided by emotions, nostalgia, and memories rather than logic. it’s hard for her to prioritize facts over how she and especially others may feel– she cannot bear to disappoint. she cares deeply about old places or broken objects, even if there’s no practicality behind them. she often replays past memories in her head and feels very strongly about them, as if they happened only recently.

forgiving . wishbone chooses to let go over anger or resentment rather than seek revenge when others hurt her. she moves on instead of holding grudges or staying upset, even if it was something deeply important to her. she understands that others have flaws just like her, and uses that knowledge to help forgive. despite usually being viewed as a positive thing, this causes her to let those who have hurt her in the past back into her life.

modest . wish does not have a high need for attention. she does not enjoy the spotlight at all, and is more than happy to allow others to take all the attention for themselves, something she’s gotten used to with pyrite as a brother. she has a realistic view of her own abilities, and, upon receiving praise, may downplay her own abilities.

stubborn . this aspect of her personality ties in more with her refusing to let go of others rather than refusing to change her plans or actions. those, she is more than willing to do if they make someone happy. however, she is stubborn to hold onto those who have hurt her, like how she sticks by pyrite despite seeing the truth.


NEG

people - pleaser . wishbone consistently puts priority on others’ needs and wants, rather than her own. even if she needs something, she won’t hesitate to give it over if someone wants it. it’s driven by her fear of rejection and not being useful. she shifts her views and opinions to match the ones of those around her, causing internal conflict, and her sense of worth relies on approval and how other cats perceive her.

self-sacrificing . tying in directly with how much of a people-pleaser she is, she also puts aside her personal goals and sacrifices her time to help others. they are priority to her, even when it is hard. it’s like a moral obligation to her to help them, even at the cost of her own happiness and time.

insecure . wishbone has self-doubt rooted deep inside of her. she fears rejection and has a fragile sense of self-worth, shattered by just a few rude or disappointed words. she constantly seeks praise, approval, and reassurance to feel good about herself, though she would never admit it to anyone, and shut down the conversation if anyone asked. she may view criticism as a personal attack.

sensitive . she responds to emotional stimuli much more deeply. tying in with her insecurity, she takes criticism very badly. she feels her emotions intensely, even deemed insignificant or unimportant by others. just the thought of someone being disappointed in her sends her into a worried and upset spiral.

hyper-independent . though she is more than willing to help others with any problems or conflicts they have, she prefers to deal with her own issues by herself. after all, why bother other cats when they’ve clearly got bigger things to deal with? she’s hyper-independent, afraid of seeming weak. she avoids asking for help and relies on herself.

think of your woman, who's gone to the west

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the bobtail wouldn't really affect wish that much.
she might have worse balance due to it, as cats usually rely on their tails for balance, but she can compensate by relying on her legs more.
may have vertebrae that aren't completely formed, or ones that have fused together.
can have various spinal issues, leading to:
poor hind leg coordination or weak hindlegs (and a hopping gait)
may be at risk for developing hcm
kidney function may decline with age

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11104057/
https://www.aspcapetinsurance.com/resources/japanese-bobtail-cat-facts/
https://www.webmd.com/pets/cats/what-to-know-about-the-japanese-bobtail

but i'm starving and freezing in my measly old bed

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the other day, someone kept on playing the song the red balloon, and i lwk didn't like it.

then I'll crawl across the salt flats, to stroke your sweet head

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i need to yap about my ideas and miscellaneous things somewhere. also!! this is kind of does not matter, but it was typed up on a doc so i can actually use em dashes and they’re so cool. i think wishbone would like them too for some reason lol.


– SONGS


only skin – joanna newsom

i bet on losing dogs – mitski

scott street – phoebe bridgers

harpy hare – yaelokre

between the bars – elliott smith

safe and sound – taylor swift

come across the desert with no shoes on

– RANDOM


collects broken and old objects, despite them being useless to her.

collects wilted flowers because she can’t bear the thought of them going unloved

disorganized attachment style

love language when giving is acts of service or gifts

favorite love language to receive is physical touch or gifts

confuses being needed with being valued. often

allows others to take advantage of her because she’d rather be used and useful than alone.

forgives too easily, forgetting apologies don’t always mean change

doesn’t really know what she wants anymore

just goes along with whatever pyrite wants

wears a wishbone necklace

she wants so badly to take care of everyone and give everyone what they want
in her ideal world, she would be able to help them all
but she can't. unfortunately, she'll keep trying


– HUMAN AU


winnie

pale, freckled skin

mousy brown hair

dark brown doe eyes


dresses in jeans and plain shirts all of the time. doesn’t draw attention to herself or wear a lot of jewelry, aside from a simple (wishbone) necklace. It’s a gift from her girlfriend.


really likes conan gray and the marias, but isn’t loud or obvious about it. also kind of has the music taste of a seventy year old. listens to music from the 1960s.


good grades in school, often does other peoples’ homework for them because she feels bad watching them fail.


major in computer science and a minor in animal science


tutors for free. competes in robotics competitions and does documenting.


gardens and likes picking wilted flowers

has a herbarium where she keeps and preserves any and all flowers, especially those from her girlfriend

wlw, has dated like three guys for a month (and one for five) who were all awful to her, dating the most perfect girl ever now, in her eyes at least. they’ve been dating for two years. they were friends for years before that.
winnie isn’t the best at relationships.

i love you truly, or i love no one