The day Mei passed away it was really hard for my whole family.
On September 19th, 2020 she was gone, at age 14. Mei will always be in our hearts and everyday she will be missed. Mei means ‘beautiful’ she was.

During February Mei was notified from her doctor's that she had lung cancer. Mei was so scared and kept calling me everyday “Fin I'm freaking out that I have cancer, what if I don't make it out.” At the time Mei was still healthy and at home in the UK. Mei never really felt pain, but would always call me freaking out that something would happen to her. That led me to panicking and crying for a few weeks, because I couldn't control anything every time I heard, Mei's voice.

In March, things were steady. Mei still went to check-ups and I would always help her when things were tough. (This was over the phone since I couldn't be in the UK with her). Mei dropped out of her public school and started getting homeschooled by her dad.

April came. Mei started losing appetite, lost many pounds, and started coughing blood. She was rushed into the hospital when she collapsed during dinner. A few days later Mei's mom called me, “Fin, she's doing fine I promise you, the doctors say she'll be up in no time.” Mei's mom's voice sounded sooth and stern, but at the same time there was hope. Two days had passed and I had not heard from Mei.

Early morning I woke to the sound of my phone wringing. “Finnn, the doctors treated me, and I'm getting worse every month. What if I won't make it?” Mei said, with each word Mei's voice started fading. I had no idea what lung cancer had done to my friend.

I kept telling Mei that she could fight through this and would make it, but at some point I started crying everyday again with Mei's words. I had nightmares and recorded them in a journal to sometime show Mei one day, if I could.

It was May now, phone calls were scarce now, I called Mei's mom and she never picked up, occasionally she did, but the sound of stress in her voice made me stop. I was losing hope at this point, worse and worse it got, my world was disappearing and fading faster than I could imagine. In late May, Mei was rushed into the hospital. Things had of course gone wrong, she said that her back hurt so much and she felt like a ghost.

Now it was June, the sun started gleaming and everyday Mei started having energy in herself. She called me more often and we would share secrets like the old days when we were next door neighbors. One of Mei's secrets that she wanted me to keep forever was to share her story of lung cancer whether she was ‘dead or alive’.

July had came. Mei was rushed back to the hospital after she felt shortness of breath and some more weight lost. Mei was an eater who enjoyed eating meat and vegetables, she was never overweight or underweight, but during the time Mei was really skinny. In the middle of July, she was put on a ventilator and was rushed to the ICU - intensive care unit. I felt the world was ending now. I questioned myself, could I help Mei? Should I fly to the UK? I knew all the answers ‘No’ it would always be, I couldn't help Mei, I could just talk to her over the phone, No I couldn't just fly to the UK, it's Covid-19 no flights are allowed and that's unsafe for me too.

August. Woah, August was here sooner than later. I introduced Mei to Poem and Forest. Forest was always the one who set up group calls and she became really close with Mei. Mei and Forest later on became best buds and I could see in Forest's eyes that there was something in her; loss and sadness. I called Forest after the group call and she said, “I'm so scared to know the truth. What- what happens if you know she's gone… forever.” I continued saying that Mei would still be here, alive, with us forever, but I could tell I was losing hope as well. Mei was moved back to the hospital on August 29th, 2020.

September came, and Mei had gotten worse. On September 15th she was moved to the ICU again and called me on the 17th saying, “I can't help it, I can't help the fact I will most likely be gone forever.” That was the last word I heard from Mei. At 3:52am on the 19th of September, Mei was gone forever…. I remember me putting myself in a group chat with Poem and Forest and all three of us were just there, crying and crying. Our emotions were drenched out with fear and pain. Poem recommended us to say something for what we regret and love from Mei. He said, “I regret every word I said about Mei doing fine, when- when she really wasn't. I lost so much hope and didn't want to talk to her anymore. I really miss Mei and the thing I cherish the most about Mei is that she was determined and funny, she once said to me, when I get out of the hospital and ring that bell to prove I don't have cancer I'm eating ice cream and steak!” Forest said something similar - Forest also told me to not disclose what she said out to the public. I remember saying, “I regret not being able to be there for Mei. I regret very single thing I said about hope, because I lost hope and cried so much. Mei was the best person on this planet and now she's gone.” Forest and Poem reassured me that it wasn't my fault I had gone crazy and Mei was gone. Mei was super healthy and lung cancer just took all of us on a bumpy ride. Forest ended the group call and we didn't talk for- some time.

I lost my mind in October and cried for days. Blaming it was my fault Mei died. Mei was everything to me, and everyday without her- sucked.

Mei was a member of Student Council in her school.
Mei was a member of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I'm not disclosing Mei's scratch account for her reasons. That was another secret I should spill. Everything else is inside of me. I have lost my best friend, but now she is in peace. Mei is no longer in pain, she must be enjoying heaven watching above us. We will miss Mei for the rest of our life time.

fin, dude <3 this is so great im crying right now I miss Mei so much and its been some time <3 I really really love how u wrote this. ghjklhgjk I miss her so much :sob:

missing Mei so much too like everybody else <3 thanks for sharing this too and im glad all of us are no comfortable of letting someone share this :') <3

y'all dudes are making me cry :sob: ilysm all and MEI I MISS U MA'AM

@froggoe checked everything to see if I spelled stuff correct too

starrliqht- wrote:

missing Mei so much too like everybody else <3 thanks for sharing this too and im glad all of us are no comfortable of letting someone share this :') <3

yes im really happy that fin was comfortable sharing too <3 Mei we miss u like heck and hope ur chilling without pain <333333333

Mei is so powerful and strong <3 she's my favoUrite human now :')

Amen <3

Although I don't know Mei well enough she seems like an amazing person one I'd want to meet, I just wish I could talk to her, just reading this makes me remember my loved ones, I know how it feels to lose someone, the pain is endless. Mei is now in peace, she shall be in our hearts. Thank you fin for sharing this, Mei must be proud <3333

cooIio- wrote:

fin, dude <3 this is so great im crying right now I miss Mei so much and its been some time <3 I really really love how u wrote this. ghjklhgjk I miss her so much :sob:

dude thanks <3 miss her so much too

starrliqht- wrote:

missing Mei so much too like everybody else <3 thanks for sharing this too and im glad all of us are no comfortable of letting someone share this :') <3

love u <3 and im glad I felt comfortable sharing this too

froggoe wrote:

Mei is so powerful and strong <3 she's my favoUrite human now :')

favoUrite she will always be <3

nostalgiaaa wrote:

Amen <3

yEs <3

-Svnflowers- wrote:

Although I don't know Mei well enough she seems like an amazing person one I'd want to meet, I just wish I could talk to her, just reading this makes me remember my loved ones, I know how it feels to lose someone, the pain is endless. Mei is now in peace, she shall be in our hearts. Thank you fin for sharing this, Mei must be proud <3333

indeed, Mei is in heaven with peace, not worrying about anything but enjoying life <3. Mei and yourself remind me of each other, sometimes needing a shoulder to cry on. <3 writing about Mei's experience was always something she wanted someone to do, and it was me.

I remember talking to Mei on scratch like 3 times I think, and her personality is really, really, neat <3 one of the times it was when she was in the hospital. hence forward she freaked out about EVERYTHING, and by everything it was only in April. <3 Mei will be missed, and fin, im glad you came out with this, and era/forest thanks for letting me have my say in this too :')

Mei, will always be missed. I will probably come back here in 4 months reading this and still shedding tears. <3

Mei was amazing

wiIderness wrote:

I remember talking to Mei on scratch like 3 times I think, and her personality is really, really, neat <3 one of the times it was when she was in the hospital. hence forward she freaked out about EVERYTHING, and by everything it was only in April. <3 Mei will be missed, and fin, im glad you came out with this, and era/forest thanks for letting me have my say in this too :')

Mei, will always be missed. I will probably come back here in 4 months reading this and still shedding tears. <3

Mei was amazing

We will always shed tears every time we read this hux <3 thank you for knowing Mei, in a way we didn't. a first online friend <3

i really love mei's determination, and it is sad that she is gone now, if i were here, i WOULD PUNCH LUNG CANCER IN THE GUT, but that's not possible, rest in peace mei <33

EZchez12 wrote:

i really love mei's determination, and it is sad that she is gone now, if i were here, i WOULD PUNCH LUNG CANCER IN THE GUT, but that's not possible, rest in peace mei <33

thank you so much <3 Mei is now in peace <3

Mei sounded like the best friend ever! I'm so sorry this happened to you. But it's NOT your fault Mei died, fate chose someone and it happened to be Mei, I hope you feel better now, and take as much time as you need to mourn.

Hello <3 Is there anything I could draw that would represent Mei? For tribute art.

(Edited for a typo)

D-kitty wrote:

Mei sounded like the best friend ever! I'm so sorry this happened to you. But it's NOT your fault Mei died, fate chose someone and it happened to be Mei, I hope you feel better now, and take as much time as you need to mourn.

thanks <333

CloudRoleplay wrote:

Hello <3 Is there anything I could draw that would represent Mei? For tribute art.

(Edited for a typo)

hmm- mei enjoyed sitting my the window with her cashmere gray/grey cat Leia.

Cat description (trying very hard to remember) - gray/grey with blue teal eyes
Mei description - soft brown hair - she always wore a positive quote t-shirt and black athletic pants.

Thanks so much <3

Mei enjoys nature VERY much too ^^

dollphins wrote:

The day Mei passed away it was really hard for my whole family.
On September 19th, 2020 she was gone, at age 14. Mei will always be in our hearts and everyday she will be missed. Mei means ‘beautiful’ she was.

During February Mei was notified from her doctor's that she had lung cancer. Mei was so scared and kept calling me everyday “Fin I'm freaking out that I have cancer, what if I don't make it out.” At the time Mei was still healthy and at home in the UK. Mei never really felt pain, but would always call me freaking out that something would happen to her. That led me to panicking and crying for a few weeks, because I couldn't control anything every time I heard, Mei's voice.

In March, things were steady. Mei still went to check-ups and I would always help her when things were tough. (This was over the phone since I couldn't be in the UK with her). Mei dropped out of her public school and started getting homeschooled by her dad.

April came. Mei started losing appetite, lost many pounds, and started coughing blood. She was rushed into the hospital when she collapsed during dinner. A few days later Mei's mom called me, “Fin, she's doing fine I promise you, the doctors say she'll be up in no time.” Mei's mom's voice sounded sooth and stern, but at the same time there was hope. Two days had passed and I had not heard from Mei.

Early morning I woke to the sound of my phone wringing. “Finnn, the doctors treated me, and I'm getting worse every month. What if I won't make it?” Mei said, with each word Mei's voice started fading. I had no idea what lung cancer had done to my friend.

I kept telling Mei that she could fight through this and would make it, but at some point I started crying everyday again with Mei's words. I had nightmares and recorded them in a journal to sometime show Mei one day, if I could.

It was May now, phone calls were scarce now, I called Mei's mom and she never picked up, occasionally she did, but the sound of stress in her voice made me stop. I was losing hope at this point, worse and worse it got, my world was disappearing and fading faster than I could imagine. In late May, Mei was rushed into the hospital. Things had of course gone wrong, she said that her back hurt so much and she felt like a ghost.

Now it was June, the sun started gleaming and everyday Mei started having energy in herself. She called me more often and we would share secrets like the old days when we were next door neighbors. One of Mei's secrets that she wanted me to keep forever was to share her story of lung cancer whether she was ‘dead or alive’.

July had came. Mei was rushed back to the hospital after she felt shortness of breath and some more weight lost. Mei was an eater who enjoyed eating meat and vegetables, she was never overweight or underweight, but during the time Mei was really skinny. In the middle of July, she was put on a ventilator and was rushed to the ICU - intensive care unit. I felt the world was ending now. I questioned myself, could I help Mei? Should I fly to the UK? I knew all the answers ‘No’ it would always be, I couldn't help Mei, I could just talk to her over the phone, No I couldn't just fly to the UK, it's Covid-19 no flights are allowed and that's unsafe for me too.

August. Woah, August was here sooner than later. I introduced Mei to Poem and Forest. Forest was always the one who set up group calls and she became really close with Mei. Mei and Forest later on became best buds and I could see in Forest's eyes that there was something in her; loss and sadness. I called Forest after the group call and she said, “I'm so scared to know the truth. What- what happens if you know she's gone… forever.” I continued saying that Mei would still be here, alive, with us forever, but I could tell I was losing hope as well. Mei was moved back to the hospital on August 29th, 2020.

September came, and Mei had gotten worse. On September 15th she was moved to the ICU again and called me on the 17th saying, “I can't help it, I can't help the fact I will most likely be gone forever.” That was the last word I heard from Mei. At 3:52am on the 19th of September, Mei was gone forever…. I remember me putting myself in a group chat with Poem and Forest and all three of us were just there, crying and crying. Our emotions were drenched out with fear and pain. Poem recommended us to say something for what we regret and love from Mei. He said, “I regret every word I said about Mei doing fine, when- when she really wasn't. I lost so much hope and didn't want to talk to her anymore. I really miss Mei and the thing I cherish the most about Mei is that she was determined and funny, she once said to me, when I get out of the hospital and ring that bell to prove I don't have cancer I'm eating ice cream and steak!” Forest said something similar - Forest also told me to not disclose what she said out to the public. I remember saying, “I regret not being able to be there for Mei. I regret very single thing I said about hope, because I lost hope and cried so much. Mei was the best person on this planet and now she's gone.” Forest and Poem reassured me that it wasn't my fault I had gone crazy and Mei was gone. Mei was super healthy and lung cancer just took all of us on a bumpy ride. Forest ended the group call and we didn't talk for- some time.

I lost my mind in October and cried for days. Blaming it was my fault Mei died. Mei was everything to me, and everyday without her- sucked.

Mei was a member of Student Council in her school.
Mei was a member of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I'm not disclosing Mei's scratch account for her reasons. That was another secret I should spill. Everything else is inside of me. I have lost my best friend, but now she is in peace. Mei is no longer in pain, she must be enjoying heaven watching above us. We will miss Mei for the rest of our life time.

Fly high, Mei! We miss you so much! <33

Aesthetic_BumbleBee wrote:

Fly high, Mei! We miss you so much! <33

yes we do <3

dollphins wrote:

The day Mei passed away it was really hard for my whole family.
On September 19th, 2020 she was gone, at age 14. Mei will always be in our hearts and everyday she will be missed. Mei means ‘beautiful’ she was.

During February Mei was notified from her doctor's that she had lung cancer. Mei was so scared and kept calling me everyday “Fin I'm freaking out that I have cancer, what if I don't make it out.” At the time Mei was still healthy and at home in the UK. Mei never really felt pain, but would always call me freaking out that something would happen to her. That led me to panicking and crying for a few weeks, because I couldn't control anything every time I heard, Mei's voice.

In March, things were steady. Mei still went to check-ups and I would always help her when things were tough. (This was over the phone since I couldn't be in the UK with her). Mei dropped out of her public school and started getting homeschooled by her dad.

April came. Mei started losing appetite, lost many pounds, and started coughing blood. She was rushed into the hospital when she collapsed during dinner. A few days later Mei's mom called me, “Fin, she's doing fine I promise you, the doctors say she'll be up in no time.” Mei's mom's voice sounded sooth and stern, but at the same time there was hope. Two days had passed and I had not heard from Mei.

Early morning I woke to the sound of my phone wringing. “Finnn, the doctors treated me, and I'm getting worse every month. What if I won't make it?” Mei said, with each word Mei's voice started fading. I had no idea what lung cancer had done to my friend.

I kept telling Mei that she could fight through this and would make it, but at some point I started crying everyday again with Mei's words. I had nightmares and recorded them in a journal to sometime show Mei one day, if I could.

It was May now, phone calls were scarce now, I called Mei's mom and she never picked up, occasionally she did, but the sound of stress in her voice made me stop. I was losing hope at this point, worse and worse it got, my world was disappearing and fading faster than I could imagine. In late May, Mei was rushed into the hospital. Things had of course gone wrong, she said that her back hurt so much and she felt like a ghost.

Now it was June, the sun started gleaming and everyday Mei started having energy in herself. She called me more often and we would share secrets like the old days when we were next door neighbors. One of Mei's secrets that she wanted me to keep forever was to share her story of lung cancer whether she was ‘dead or alive’.

July had came. Mei was rushed back to the hospital after she felt shortness of breath and some more weight lost. Mei was an eater who enjoyed eating meat and vegetables, she was never overweight or underweight, but during the time Mei was really skinny. In the middle of July, she was put on a ventilator and was rushed to the ICU - intensive care unit. I felt the world was ending now. I questioned myself, could I help Mei? Should I fly to the UK? I knew all the answers ‘No’ it would always be, I couldn't help Mei, I could just talk to her over the phone, No I couldn't just fly to the UK, it's Covid-19 no flights are allowed and that's unsafe for me too.

August. Woah, August was here sooner than later. I introduced Mei to Poem and Forest. Forest was always the one who set up group calls and she became really close with Mei. Mei and Forest later on became best buds and I could see in Forest's eyes that there was something in her; loss and sadness. I called Forest after the group call and she said, “I'm so scared to know the truth. What- what happens if you know she's gone… forever.” I continued saying that Mei would still be here, alive, with us forever, but I could tell I was losing hope as well. Mei was moved back to the hospital on August 29th, 2020.

September came, and Mei had gotten worse. On September 15th she was moved to the ICU again and called me on the 17th saying, “I can't help it, I can't help the fact I will most likely be gone forever.” That was the last word I heard from Mei. At 3:52am on the 19th of September, Mei was gone forever…. I remember me putting myself in a group chat with Poem and Forest and all three of us were just there, crying and crying. Our emotions were drenched out with fear and pain. Poem recommended us to say something for what we regret and love from Mei. He said, “I regret every word I said about Mei doing fine, when- when she really wasn't. I lost so much hope and didn't want to talk to her anymore. I really miss Mei and the thing I cherish the most about Mei is that she was determined and funny, she once said to me, when I get out of the hospital and ring that bell to prove I don't have cancer I'm eating ice cream and steak!” Forest said something similar - Forest also told me to not disclose what she said out to the public. I remember saying, “I regret not being able to be there for Mei. I regret very single thing I said about hope, because I lost hope and cried so much. Mei was the best person on this planet and now she's gone.” Forest and Poem reassured me that it wasn't my fault I had gone crazy and Mei was gone. Mei was super healthy and lung cancer just took all of us on a bumpy ride. Forest ended the group call and we didn't talk for- some time.

I lost my mind in October and cried for days. Blaming it was my fault Mei died. Mei was everything to me, and everyday without her- sucked.

Mei was a member of Student Council in her school.
Mei was a member of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I'm not disclosing Mei's scratch account for her reasons. That was another secret I should spill. Everything else is inside of me. I have lost my best friend, but now she is in peace. Mei is no longer in pain, she must be enjoying heaven watching above us. We will miss Mei for the rest of our life time.

I'm…. so sorry.. i hope that this new year will be better for u and your family, you've suffered enough….. ((